OK, so by now many of you have heard that we hit a little (read: HUGE) rough patch. Today E was very, very sad pretty much all day. The whole family was sleep deprived, food deprived, and generally quite sad. E stopped eating, drinking, and didn't smile once. We had to leave breakfast so I could walk her around the entire hotel as she yelled "mama." Every window, every hallway, every door we had to check for mama. I have never in my life experienced anything so pathetic. It hurt P and me so badly because there was absolutely nothing we could do to make it better for her. She did not want anything we could provide, she only wanted her mama. I'm sharing this so that if you experience this, know that you are not alone. Don't think that there is some magical formula and that things will get better each day. In fact, for us, it got much, much worse.
It was excruciating for us to watch E suffer such anguish, but we stayed by her every minute of it and tried to comfort her. The love we have for her is so incredibly deep that we would stand by her through anything. We do believe in our hearts that it will get better, but it will take time. I know that she has a tender soul already...when she caught me having some tears of my own, she picked up a towel from the bathroom floor and wiped my eyes. I know it is only anxious attachment, but there is something kind and gentle inside of our daughter.
In an effort to lighted up this post, I'll throw in a picture for all of you E junkies. Even on her worst day, she is so damn cute.